Pink Bunnies

Today, I'm going to stay in bed with Spongebob blanket and pink bunnies hopping around my daydreams. These pink bunnies have leopard print tails. Wicked, right?

They make me feel better. Especially Spongebob. He knows how to cuddle me.

So why this sunny Thursday in bed? Well, it's sunny. I'm sick of the sun. But, it is cold! And very windy. So, I will naturally have the windows wide open and make it freezing in my box so I can wrap my blankets extra tight around me. Perfect.

But, this day in bed is not completely due to me just not agreeing with the lighting decor outside today. No, I'm having trouble sparking my pen mojo. I put it to the pad and all I make are scribbles. Scribblets as my Supahoe would say. Scribblets. I'll feed them to the pink bunnies. Supahoe is good at making up words. It's a treat. I want to try. Definitely takes the pressure off of trying to make something sanely profound. Word making actually is genius in it's own right. I'll make a whole new language, the language of my pink bunnies.

Have a good day.

Tummy Ache

I got a plastic pumpkin from Rite Aid and filled it with KitKat bars, Reese's peanut butter cups, Hershey's milk chocolate, Spongebob crabby patties, and peanut M&M's.

Tummy ache. And so worth it.


I stuck my head in the pumpkin and it smelled like Halloween.

Spit

Remember playing that card game in elementary school and on substitute days pretending to do your assignments in groups, but instead you were playing this fast paced game which seemed to never end and the whole point was to rush and finish first? Well, I remembered it last night. Played a round with a friend, who never played before, and he beat me. His hand was quicker to slap the smaller pile. I didn't feel like I had a problem thinking quickly and keeping up. My reflexes just weren't as fast. And I'm bad at knowing which is the smaller pile.

Today I feel like I'm playing a similar game. There's 2 choices I have, 2 piles, and a ticking clock I need to keep up with. Just as if I'm trying to keep up with and beat the other player. It was an adrenaline rush trying to beat my friend. But let me tell you, trying to beat time is quite stressful. And the never ending part, scary. So many plans to set on top of each choice. I'll set them quickly and sufficiently, just like the cards. But the thing that's holding me back is my slow reflex response on choosing the right pile. In this case, the game is opposite. I need to choose the pile first before I take care of my cards. And it's not that I have to choose the smaller pile to ensure I'm eventually left with nothing...no, that would be horrible. Rather, I need the pile with the most cards to ensure a constant load and longevity.

So, relatively, I'm bad at knowing which is the right choice.

Off to See the Wizard

It is a long windy road, with many goblins to watch out for. But with the right shoes, it's very possible to make your way along it. Unlike the movie, there isn't just one castle and there isn't a final destination. It's never ending. Longest video game ever. But in my opinion, the best damn one to play. It may be hard to believe, but I've just now completed level one. And the wizard is waiting to give me my reward. Wanna hear it?

Where did the laughs go?

....I've been studying and planning and writing and memorizing and recording and practicing and brainstorming and writing and drinking water and learning and writing and listening and thinking and listening and handling a tape measurer rather badly and sitting in silence and microwaving my meals and drinking water and planning and thinking and writing and eating chips ahoy to add some excitement to my day and writing and singing and singing and singing and....well...... I would like to take just one minute in between all of this and simply have a laugh.

Return to LAlaland

This place is becoming easier to get along with. It does me good to go back home to Jersey and visit those places that first inspired me. Now I feel recharged and full of magic fuel. Hope it lasts me till Christmas. And who knows if I'll even get to revisit then. I'm going to have to experience the Fall and Winter seasons again at some point.

There's just something gorgeous and comforting about the smell and look of dried Autumn leaves mixed with sips of Pumkin Spice Latte while sitting on a bench by the pond.

There's something about the gray antique look the clouds and bare branches on the arching trees give over the small town streets while driving with my left foot tucked into my chest on the seat.

There's something about Orion's belt.

There's something about staying up late in my deep red room listening to Damien Rice with the windows wide open to smell the cold sharp night while painting or writing on the walls.

There's something about the way these 2 seasons make music sound to me. But even more, the way they make music feel to me.

But, I'll be missing it again this year for the 2nd time. I'm fine for now. LAlaland is giving me good reason to make this compromise. However, I will see my 2 seasons again. I don't know when, but it will for sure need to happen. Or else I'm afraid I won't have the same connection with a pen.

Were Goin' to Hollywood!

First night back on the east coast, I went into NYC with my sister and her boyfriend. We started off at Connelly's, Irish bar, in Time Square area and saw an awesome band play, Shilelagh Law. Of course I had an ice cold Guiness!! yum yum yum

Then we ventured over to Iggys on the east side for some karaoke and bday drinks for cousin Natasha. Bday girl and I got up on the stage and dominated the crowd with our rendition of Rihanna's "Umbrella". I definitely tapped into some Jay Z magic that I got from watching his live show at sister's apartment before the evening began.



We were so good, that we got the Golden Idol ticket. Yep, get ready Hollywood. I'll be back, and better than ever.

HELP ME WIN!

Post this...
Talk about this...
Share this...
Stare at this...
Believe this...

ROCK THIS!

Morning Birds

I hear morning birds all night here in Hollywood.

WOW

So it's Tuesday night in LaLA Land and I stayed in to work on some lyrics. Needed a mood inducing element and found this:



I can't wait to get back home and add this to the wall of my room at my Dad's house. That wall at the head of my bed is reserved for the songs of this kind of moment.

Evidence

There's evidence of you
Left something funny behind you

What do you see?

I know what I see...but, just curious to know what you see before I finish it.

Funny how you can make an image out of spontaneous hand painting. Yes, I used my hand. It was fun to just splat it on there without thinking while listening to Hot Chip, this band my sister has passed onto me. They are quite the blend of a million different sounds at once. Guess that's where I got the urge to blend anything I pulled out of my basket of paint.

So tell me, what do you see?

GIANT

It's hard to make all these decisions on my own so far from home: what kind of groceries to get, how often should I go out for a beer, if I should walk home alone at 4 am after my studio sessions, who I should bring in to my studio sessions, how to keep professional relationships, if I should plan on staying in LaLA LAnd after I'm done with school in Sept or go back to NJ?

phewww. Tough call, right?

It's like I've been on this cross country road trip with no map. BUT, the cool part, I can now split some of the gas money and still have fun because I picked up this GIANT hitch hiker who happened to be heading in the same direction. Yea, you probably will see us roaming the boulevard (yes we are foot tramps and one day soon we'll move up to rubber tramp status) or in a coffee shop working up to the day we put a spotlight on this hollywood undercover scene.

Really, you won't miss us, he's a freakin GIANT. And don't be surprised if you find yourself saying, "Heeeyyy, IS THAT JACK......?"

One Person Romance

Remember NAT NASTY?

Well, the debut of her first hit parody of Lady Gaga's "Bad Romance" is out...

and let me just say first off, not only do I want to write, record, produce and perform my own music (and for others as well) but I now have a new obsession for video editing. I was getting frustrated most of the time while piecing this together because just like Garage Band, iMovie limited me to the effects and transitions. I was trying to do things I had no idea I was aware of in film editing. Jeeyyysus! When will I stop trying to do it all!!!???????

Regardless of there not being enough hours in a day, I loved every second spent on this project. AND can't wait for the next one.

LNE Production is quickly becoming an entertainment power house, right out of my own Lipid Zulu Studios in LaLA LAnd, Ca...

Here it is, the premiere of Nat Nasty's ONE PERSON ROMANCE:
Parental Discretion Advised

Tattooooo

So I started a new tattoo last week while Nat Nasty was visiting...

Bandit is the artist and quite the character. He's got a snake tongue and he talks suuuuuper fast. I have to try and understand what he's saying by vowel sounds. He's an awesome artist and can't wait for him to finish this thing.

Check it out:







Inspiration

I CAME HERE TO...

work with someone on my own songs who loves what I do and is great at what they do.

to work with someone who talks deeply like I do.

work with someone who sees far beyond the simple words and phrases.

to work with someone who cares just as much about the lyrics as they do about the music.

work with someone who thinks I can do this.

to work with someone who will support me and not hinder me.

I've started, but still in shallow waters.

TUES, MAY 4th '10 EDIT:

That "someone" is me. Simply, me.

Sisters

I'm on the complete opposite end of the country from my sister and we're building a stronger connection than when we lived in side by side rooms at home in NJ.

It's official, we are now twins... take a look:

This is me

and this is her

I wasn't there but thanks to BBM, (yes, we are crackberry whores) I went through the whole moment with her laughing as she said her face was vibrating!

I got these 3 stars when I was 17 and they represent the 3 stars of Orion's Belt. I learned about him in 5th grade and have been in love ever since. He's been watching over me and now he can watch over my sister for me too until we meet again.

NAT NASTY

This is an LNE Production:

I just finished up filming a music video in my own Lipid Zulu Studios for the up coming artist, Nat Nasty.

She had a great idea and I couldn't help but take her vision farther beyond what she expected.

Also, we had the pleasure of bringing in the great Jackson Church who so effortlessly took on the role of John Mayer.

Yours truly had such fun directing this duo and is so excited to share it with you that instead of getting to work on editing the actual video, I made you all a little sneak peak at our behind the scenes action.

Enjoy



...and stay tuned for the premiere!

Mile Run

Took my brain and gave it a shake
Sunset, Vine
Strolling along, along with the traffic
Where do they all come from?
This nameless crowd
One thing I love about city life
Each is a different cereal box
One big market
All get imported and sold on demand
Put in an isle along with similar styles and brands

I miss this mile run,
This kind where I can just run full speed
With no one listening
Just the sound of my feet in my head
With each stride another word...

And here I start to lose it.

I miss home

BALL3RZ

This is an LNE & KEITH KAOS production...

We just remixed your favorite baseball anthem "Take Me Out to the Ball Game" for the competition to stay 2 nights at the grand opening of the Hard Rock Hotel in San Diego. When our video is uploaded to their website I will be mass demanding you all vote for our hotness. And hey, you never know, maybe we'll invite you along for the party. But we have to win first.

Check it out first right here...RIGHT NOW...

Chocolate Oreo Milkshake

Best treat after a hard week...Mel's diner with JC and milkshakes!

But not just any shake...nope. Gotta be filled with Oreo goodness. yuuuum

Handed in my 3 song demo today for the Independent Artist program at MI. It's been a great first 6 months out in adventureland. Wow, 6 months and I've only just begun. It was a huge step for me to realize that all on my own, you can't possibly make a finished product in that amount of time especially while your still learning. God, I just want to get there though!

I could if I was a Power Ranger...

But unfortunately, I'm not. I took a deep look back at where I was 3 years ago and followed my steps that brought me here today. It's amazing what I've learned about myself. Crazy how clearly I saw my future as a dancing pop artist when I was 18 and how far from it my lyrics took me. Here, take a look-



So, no matter how much better my demo could be, it does feel good to be at this point. I've got great new tools to work with and can't wait to see how much more I'll grow in the next 6 months.

Aaaaaah...but for now, now on this pivotal day, all my love and devotion goes to that Oreo Chocolate shake :)

Homesick

hmmm, so it was all going well... it still is... but... I guess it was too good to be true that I got comfortable so quickly in my adventureland. It's amazing making all these new friends, collaborating with all these great upcoming musicians and artists, and it's the chance of a lifetime to be living and performing right in the center of Hollywood. But in the middle of all that, it's hard not to feel a pang for the things I don't have for the first time living away from home.

Fall and Winter are my seasons. They fuel my inspiration to the max. And this is the first time I'm having spring/summer year round. WEIRD. I didn't even have a pumpkin spice latte over the holiday season. It in no way would have lived up to the Rockefeller-Christmas-tree-taste or the life-love-talks-with-Dora-taste. Even so, the holidays weren't so bad because I got to go home and recharge for a short 2 weeks. It's those daily routine rituals around my town that I'm starting to miss like crazy now.

I miss my favorite Barnes and Noble on route 17 S... best lighting. I could get lost sipping on Starbucks indian style in between the stacks, free writing away in my moleskin.

I miss parking in the Riverside mall facing route 4, and staring off in my car as I write the next verse to a new track.

I miss drawing on my bedroom walls.

I miss only having to walk 5 steps to Dunkin Donuts outside my mom's apartment to get a late night hot chocolate.

I miss taking those late night trips with my mom and always getting pissed at her for stopping in the minimart to get her scratch tickets.

I miss Ophelia always following me into the kitchen and staring me down as I nibble on leftovers in the fridge.

I miss always being able to go to yaiya's (grandma's) for lunch when I have no money.

I miss shopping with Yaiya and watching her work her Washington Heights bargaining street smarts on the cashier in Kmart.

I miss going on a drive and putting my left foot up on the seat as I steer aimlessly just to listen to Damien Rice or Justin Nozuka, or Radiohead, or Deathcab...perfect relaxation.

I miss going out with CD and taking shots in the front seat as we go through the Lincoln Tunnel blasting my latest song.

I miss CD.

I miss going to the movies with my dad. Best father/daughter date.

I miss sitting with my dad for at least half an hour, mostly in silence. We both feel everything that's bothering us, and it's as if that time in the bonding silence is our way of attempting to work it all out.

I miss "I Can't Believe It's Yogurt".

I miss physical training with Alberto and getting the best art/boy advice at the same time.

I miss my second mother from India and her crazy daughter who is the only one capable of making me smoke a cigarette when we're drunk. (I did it once here with strangers in honor of my nostalgia)

I miss taking the NJ Transit bus into the city.

I miss GSP.

I miss going all the way to GSP just for Jamba Juice.

I miss the Duck Pond. That place never fails me.

I miss my adventures at the Duck Pond with Lil' Dude (aka...C.Fly)

I miss the bitch-outs with my sister for commanding me to move my dirty toy car so she can park her shiny white G5 BMW on the side away from the sprinklers, and then 5 minutes later knocking on her door to borrow a clutch.

I miss talking to the tree outside my bedroom window at my dad's. That tree is so ancient looking, and yet hasn't changed one bit since the time we met in 7th grade.

What I miss most of all, are my trips to Blockbuster where I would spend an hour walking around the new release wall and mossy on over to the register with no less than 5 movies. I netflix now, and it just isn't the same.

I guess, after the 1st 6 months of being away, it's only normal to start to miss your old ways. Tonight, I just feel it the most.

Studio tomorrow will settle it for sure!

Home, I love you and I'll see you again soon ;)

Alexander Harris

Freshman year of high school, a very good friend of mine bought me the greatest DVD set of all time. The first season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Yes, since then I've collected every season after that and have watched every episode maybe 20 times each. Mind you that's 7 seasons of 24 episodes. Yes, I was obsessed and still am. Hence, you can imagine the frenzy I was in when I spotted one of the main characters walking right out of the Highland mall last night on the Blvd. Nicholas Brendan...aka XANDER! My heart was beating like a death metal double kick drum and the first thing I said to him was,"Can I hug you?"


Best moment of the month! ha
I'm such a happy little girl :)

Stumped by new song...

Free Food

Come on, if there is an event going on with FREE food, wouldn't you stock up too? Whatever. I was hungry.

It's Morphin Time

I'm officially a power ranger. And I thank JC for helping me realize, over yummy brownies, just why I've always been obsessed with this kind of superhero.

I'm fascinated by those average Joe kids and their ability to instantly transform into this powerful and great form. Hence my additional love for Bumblebee the Transformer. Instant power.

I guess I'm subconsciously trying to do this with my life. I understand now, thanks to Miley Cyrus. It's great to reach that level of virtue, but what's more important is the strength it took to climb there.

Every day I see this lightning bolt, to always keep my childhood imagination intact, to give me strength and motivation, but most importantly....to make me feel badass.